27th July, 2014 - BB Matthias

27th July 2014.

It's a real special date to me, Mr.hoong and my Baby Hoong!

It's mr.hoong birthday, 

It's our first year marriage (ROM) anni........and

Baby Hoong's birthday!

Early in the morning, the nurse came to me as usual at 6am for the CTG test. 

Midway doing the CTG, nurse suddenly tuned off the heartbeat sound - which is not their normal practice...

I did not pass the test, and they said baby is sleeping and they can't detect well, and so they need to do another time for it.

Not passed, still.

Doc came to check me at 8+am, which is not so normal too *he usually check at 9*

sat next to me and said "so, Sharon, I really wish we can prolong the baby's stay in womb, and induce you after Raya but it seems like he couldn't tahan anymore, and his heartbeats dropped and did not pass for even a small contraction hit"
*rephrased*

and so, Doc decided to bring him out today!

And guess what?

Mr.Hoong went to waterfall with friends!

I couldn't call him all the way! even his friends!

I called for N times and sooooooooooooooooooo nervous!!!
My sis kept calling from Taiwan too and asked me to relax...

I get my bro and mum and told them about this and they immediately closed the shop and rushed to hospital.

I was so nervous until my blood pressure went up and I felt super hot!

Nurses who came in all shivered in cold but I'm the only one sweating in!

I prayed.

Prayed.

and prayed.

Pray to God.

My mum n bro reached right before they sent me to operation theater.

"我很怕”

First thing I said to my mum.

She asked me not to scare, but I can see that she's very worried too!

When I reached operation room, what I think is that it's just so cold!!!!!!!!!!!

Just like when I was wearing not enough in Beijing when it was -3 degree Celsius!!!

While waiting to be pushed in to the real theater, I heard the midwife scolding few nurses on why they came late and etc.

I'm so sorry, it was a Sunday, and pre-Raya celebration day, and most of the nurses are on leave but being called back for my emergency case.

So now, pushed to the theater.

There's music in the theater.

I tried not to look at the equipments and keep closing my eyes, prayed and prayed.

I was so helpless but just hope baby will be fine!

The anaestathist explained what he's going to do on me and comfort me all the way.

While explaining, I saw my gynae washing hands just like how those TVB doctors washed hands.

@.@

And so, I curled myself and he gave me a jab or two at the spine, I don't remember.

I lied down again, with both hands opening, sleeping on a 40degrees waterbed.....Helpless!

And slowly, my lower part went numb and I can feel the doc and nurse started to insert urine catheter...

Throughout the process and the anaestathist kept talking to me to make me feel relaxed, but it did not help much.

And I could still sense a few 'drawings' on my stomach, just like when u use finger to draw on it...and a slight push from the anaesthathis...

Not long after, I heard my gynae said "cili padi" then followed by loud crying voice!

My baby!!!!!!

I just couldn't believe it!!!

My baby!!!!!!

Doctor then showed me "nah, your baby"

"So small" from me.....

Then he continued his work.

Awhile after, his face appeared to me again,

"Checked already, baby has no Down syndrome"

He knew that I've been worrying about this after the detailed scan, which was done by another sonographer, and found calcium deposit in baby's heart.

Although it's a soft marker but it worried me like hell and tortured my mind for damn few weeks........

but now, it's such a relief!

The  paeditrician then came to me and showed me baby.

"Baby ahhh"

First thing I said to him.

He's so tiny, but beautiful to me.

I wanted to touch him but I just couldn't...and the paed said she needs to bring him back to nursery for milk as he's having low blood sugar..

Everything has done and I kept asking bout my baby.

If he's breathing ok? And if everything ok...

When I came out, I saw my mum...and she asked "very cold ahhh?"

Lolll nurse put like layers of blankets on me and I still feel cold for like 30 mins even without aircond on.

Then I saw Mr.Hoong popped out from not-sure-where, and is almost teared when he said "we have our baby here".

Lollll

At first I thought I'll be crying but I did not.

I need to stay strong to see my baby~~~

Then Mr.Hoong get in to see baby and snapped some pics of baby for me~

My baby, Matthias, as some name dictionary said, it's Gift from God.

Here's your very first pic~

Doctor Chew, your paed was giving you a burp in this pic.

your hand is just as big as our finger size, and your head is just like mummy's small fist.

And you are too active and keep moving your oxygen line.

Thank you, baby to fight for your life and stay together with us.

Thank you, God, for this precious gift given, and for protecting us throughout the process.

Amen.