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哈咯！
没想到3年后我还会在这里出现。。。

现在，我已经是两位孩子的妈了。
时间方面，我比以前来得更少。

最近遇上生活上的压力，我真的是不知如何是好。
头脑控制不了一直一直地在思考。
我到底这样是为了什么！

我好想像以前那样诬赖，野蛮，不顾一切尽情地把情绪一一喊出来。
可是，我不可以。
我是一位妈妈。
这个称号真的很慎重。

不要误会，我很爱我孩子们。
只是要把妈妈的身份变得自私一点我做不到。
也是因为不够自私，我失去了自己。

我，到底可以洗掉那份讨人厌的思想。

Matthias is going for a surgery

We have found out Matthias has Hernia Inguinal 2+ months back but has not been doing anything on that until I made an appointment for the surgery last week.

Hernia can develop more often in premature babies and baby boys have the higher possibilities in getting it too!


Reason why I did not make any call to schedule on the surgery is because he has few vaccines to take during past months and I just don't feel like getting him on so much stress on those!

and why I suddenly made a call is because I found out the lower abdomen has been getting swelling than before!

and the surgery is happening TOMORROW!!!
I did not really think about it since last week was a long weekend and I have been busy taking care of him and brought him out for chores and so on.
Until today, when I finally free, and to work.
I kept thinking & thinking while I was driving on all the possibilities *mummy mental issues*
and wondering how is the doc & nurses going to give him anesthetic since he never even wanted a stranger to touch him!

Helpless & I googled about the doctor & hospital and knowing that 1 parent is allowed to go in with the baby and I am much relieved..............

Matthias's milestones as of 17 months old (compilation):-

1. He knows quite some words like papa, mama, daddy & mummy (if lucky enough), shh (fish), nana (take), geigei (give), ah bu (my bro), yee (my sis), jiejie, gogor, yi yer (to point on dirty or rubbish), yum yum, owl, tar (star), car, baby, wow wow (dog), ball...etc can't think of now....

2. He knows how to point on the thing he saw or wants.

3. He throws tantrum if we do not let him get what he want / sit on the floor -.-'''

4. He scolds us back my clapping his hands just like us scolding him.

5. He will peep at you when you are scolding him and then give you a smile.

6. He understands most of the things that we told him.

7. He knows when we mention wipe, brush teeth, wash hand, wipe hand (and goes to his towel and wipe!), wear shoes...

8. He recognizes a lot of nursery rhymes and knows what to do next!
(blink the hands for twinkle twinkle, clap hands for open shut them & if you happy, pat for BINGO, wave)

9. I finally let him walk in the malls and he's running and screaming excitedly! (but I still carry him up if there're too many people or he doesn't let me hold his hand - I repeated and he finally understand he needs to hold hand when walking around although some times he is reluctant to!)

10. When I said 我要回家了 from my maternal home, he will run to his Ah Gong's room and wave & give a flying kiss!

11. 17 months and still dunno how to self-feed...hehe...but that's ok...keep learning! He only picks those bread from our hands.

12. He will make noise and walk to the door when he sees his Ah Yi - wanted to go out!

13. He will want to take the money and pay when we are at the cashier, and said "nana" from the cashier for the change!

14. He will be super alert on his steps when I said "becareful" or 小心一点...and if he is not sure, he will crawl and touch and see how steep is the steps!

15. He knows how to "sayang" people.

16. He will call people to come with his hand .

17. He will look behind to see if the third person (my mum or his dad) is not following him.

18. He shakes his head for a NO.

19. He calls traffic light ball-ball coz the light is in circle form ...hahahaha

20. and...I have no idea why is he scare of TEN IN THE BED song

There are many more of his milestones...and I think I need to start writing them up every month!

Easy Bitsy Carbonara

Also, another recipe shared around in Facebook...

with just few ingredients:-

1 tbsp Olive Oil

2 cloves of garlic

200g spaghetti

Parmesan cheese

2 eggs

Ham/Bacon

 Place the spaghetti into a pot of boiling water with salt and some olive oil in it (so that they won't be sticking together)

Next, lightly whisk the eggs and add the Parmesan cheese in it and mix well & Set a side

*should have bought finer Parmesan cheese powder for creamier texture*

Stir fry the garlic until they are slightly brownish

It would be BEST if you use bacon for this dish...

but since I don't have...I used  just ham and German ham slice...

when the pasta is done, drained well and add into the pan, and lastly, pour in the cheese&eggs mixture and mix well for about 1 minute!

Whole process just takes less than 15 minutes!

No worries, it's moist and not dry as you see the pic XD

remember to sprinkle some black pepper or parsley/basil too!

Linguine Aglio Olio with bacon & mushrooms

I have really no sense in cooking!

I've seen recipes and videos on how to cook Aglio Olio, but still failed for twice...

First time too dry and bland -.-

Second time too salty!

And finally the third time is quite a success ones!

*maybe I should thank the bacon..haha*

Here are the ingredients I used for 3 portions:-

Linguine 300g

White Button Mushrooms 8pcs

Bacon streaks

Basil leaves

Garlic

Dried Basil/Parsley

Black pepper

Chilli flakes

Salt

Olive Oil 4tbsp

VCO 2tbsp

*I roughly use 3 tbsp of oil for 100g portion*

First of all, heat up the pan and pan fry the bacon without oil...

and while frying it, boil a pot of water with salt and some oil to cook the linguine until the texture & saltiness you like and get it drained & set aside by then.

When the bacon is turning brown, turn off the stove and set it aside.

But still, remaining the bacon fats in pan!

*p/s: why lah bacon shrink? T__T*

Bring in the oil and pan fry the garlic in medium fire until it turned slightly brownish

Then add in the chopped mushrooms and cook until they released the liquid 

*until they shrink, literally*

Then add in the fresh basil leaves and a pinch of salt

and add in the cooked bacon, and let them stay in the pan for like 2 mins in medium low fire then turn it off~

Finally, add in the linguine and mix well together with chilli flakes, parseley/basil, and black pepper

and TADAAAAAAA

my version of Linguine Aglio Olio

Cream of Mushroom Soup

I've been inspired by few friends who always do some simple cooking or lunch box, and also some mummies from FB mummy groups these days.....

and so, here blows my sense to cook!

XP

I've tried a few simple dishes these 3 weeks but often failed,

of coz those simple breakkie like big breakfast ok la coz just heat up and season everything ma...

2 days ago I've seen a mummy shared on the group on how to make mushroom soup, 

and being impulse wanted to make this mushroom soup yesterday since I have all the ingredients in fridge!

I didn't really measure all the ingredients, and didn't follow all steps but just roughly control and add bit by bit.

Here are the ingredients I used:-

1 Yellow Onion - diced

1 Red Onion  - diced

(Supposed to use 2 Yellow Onions, but since I only left one and so I use red onion XD)

1 Potato - diced

(Can omit, I'm adding this for some texture - saw in google recipe)

Shiitake Mushrooms - chopped

White Button Mushrooms - chopped

Cooking Cream

Butter - 2 tablespoons

Olive Oil - 1 tablespoon

Chicken Soup 

(I curi ayam, using chicken stock ><)

Dried Parsley Flakes

Black Pepper

Salt

Step 1

Add in the olive oil & butter

And add in the onions once the butter has melted, stir fry and saute for about 3 minutes

Then, add in the mushrooms and saute until they release the moisture and becoming soft.

Step 2

Add potatoes & the chicken soup until it covers all your ingredients.

you may add more if you like it to be more soupy...

Add in salt, black pepper bit by bit until you get the taste you like.

Then bring it to boil, and turn to medium low heat.

Step 3

When the potatoes are soft, add in some cooking cream/whipping cream and bring it to boil again in medium low heat and turn to low heat and get it simmer for about 10 minutes.

Get them blend in a blender and add in your parsley!

Tadaaaaa

Here's my version of Creamy Mushroom Soup~

*I reserved some chopped mushrooms for picture purpose*

#BBMATTHIAS has turned 1

Time flies~~~

My Baobei Matthias has turned 1!!!

From a 3 pounds+ baby that has grown up so much.

As of 27th July 2015, 

if not mistaken, he is barely 16pounds now.

*hasn't go for the first year check up yet hehehe*

Still much lighter than other babies, but he has achieved more than 3 times of the birthweight!

Here are the milestone of #bbmatthias:-

1. Flip at 5 months old.

2. Start saying ah buu at 7 months old.

3. Sit at 8 months old.

4. Worm-style crawling at 9 months old.

5. Start calling baa-baa or papa at 9.5 months old.
6. 2 bottom milk teeth at 9.5 months old.

7. Crawling at 10 months old.
8. Total of 4 teeth (2 upper, 2 bottom) at 10.5 months old.

9. Hold and stand at 11 months old.

10. Say "papa", "mama","mum-mum","nen-nen","gaa-gai"

11. Trying to let go your hand and stand. Sometimes he can stand for 5 seconds.